Days 5-8

I'm going to be away for the weekend so I thought I would get a jump on some days I'll be offline.

Day 5 - your favorite quote.

This used to be my favorite quote:
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."- Dr. Seuss

I put it in my senior yearbook personal section. I still like it and like to live by it but since Stella died I've found others that stay with me. Always Dr. Seuss; he was a wise man.

“Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.”

"I'm sorry to say so but sadly it's true
that bang-ups and hang-ups can happen to you"

Day 6 - twenty things that calm you.

1. Hugs from R
2. Seeing Alice romp around the backyard
3. A warm bath
4. Waking up to the sound of rain
5. Snuggling under a blanket on the couch
6. Watching movies
7. Walking through the woods
8. Talking to my adorable 3 year old nephew
9. Warm baked goods
10. Falling asleep in R's arms
11. Deep breaths
12. Getting home from work on a Friday night
13. Watching funny movies
14. Taking the scenic road
15. Looking at Stella's mural
16. Cleaning (yeah I know, I'm kind of nuts)
17. The Beatles
18. Sewing
19. Changing out of work clothes into a fresh pair of sweatpants
20. R, again R is my rock

These next two topics are hard for me differentiate. Seeing photos of Stella make me so happy. She was beautiful and wonderful but they make me sad too. Her time here was too short and so much was done to her tiny body.

Day 7 - a photo that makes you happy.

I tend to look at my pregnancy photos because we were so innocent, so blissfully unaware.




See. Blissfully unaware.

 Day 8 - a photo that makes you angry/sad.
 
This photo is the last we have with Stella. It was taken the morning she died, in her hospital room. I think it is so fitting. It shows the life we lived for those 12 days. It shows me distraught and scared and alone. It shows the cold rainy day it was.
 

 
I miss her so much.