Days 16-18 and Emotions

It was an emotional day for me yesterday and I don't really know why. R and I cruised around in the morning looking at possible new houses. It was fun and we definitely whittled down our list. Next weekend we'll go look inside a few. In the afternoon we were at home and I was going to paint the outside of this carport thing we have on our house. I was being lazy and didn't want to go to the store so I tried using old paint and I tried to get on a ladder and I got so frustrated. I know, I know- a 6 month pregnant lady should not be on a ladder but I thought I could do it and I was so frustrated when I was shaky, not to mention the crappy paint that was like painting with milk. R had been working a food show for 4 days and was tired and I didn't want to ask for help but I went inside and started crying. Naturally he saved the day and went and bought new paint and got up on the ladder and did all the parts I couldn't reach.

I think it was all centered on being pregnant again when I didn't plan to. I planned to have an 8 month old baby right now. R always said he wanted one child and I wanted two. I expected to try to convince him to have another in a year or so. Well, we will have 2 children but only one will be alive ( I hope). It's really rough having to shift everything you hope and dream about.

And I am having a lot of body issues right now too. I thought I was done with the pregnant body for a while and now it's hard to see myself. R always tells me I'm pretty and sexy and is so sweet but I just can't get it into my head. We were all snuggly yesterday evening and I started crying because I feel huge and uncomfortable and it's only 6 months! How am I going to feel in 3 more months?!

I know it's all for a good cause and honestly, I don't know where I would mentally be right now if I didn't have this little Owl kicking me all the time, but it is so hard. There is no simple anymore.


Day 16 - a song that makes you cry (or nearly).

Bruce Cockburn's Love Song:

In the place my wonder comes from

There I find you
Your face shines in my sky

In your heart where the world comes from
There you will find me
Your eyes dance in my mind

Come with me
We will sail on the wind
We will sway among the yellow grass
When you be beside me
I am real

Though my eyes be closed forever
Still I would find you
You shine across my time

Come with me
We will sail on the wind
We will sway among the yellow grass
When you be beside me
I am real

In the place my wonder comes from
There I find you



Day 17 - an art piece (drawing, sculpture, painting, etc) that moves you.

What a question for an Art History major that works in an art museum! As someone who works with art daily, I find this an extremely difficult question to answer. I appreciate a lot of art but it doesn't necessarily move me. I am more often looking at it in context of time period, movement, influences, and technical aspects.

The things that really move me/speak to me are things that friends and family have made or that R and I have made. I am crafty and make a lot of what we have in the house. R likes to build things. We like to travel and take a lot of photos. I mean, if I could afford to have art in my house I totally would, but it's the personal and sentimental that gets me the most.

We have this photo hanging up in our living room and I just love it. R and I did a trip where we flew to Denver, drove to South Dakota to the Badlands and Mount Rushmore and Deadwood (!) and then went to Yellowstone and the Tetons and back through Wyoming to Boulder and Denver. It was an awesome trip and I would recommend it to anyone and everyone.

This photo was taken at the base of the Tetons, in May 2008, there was still ice on the water and snow around but it was 75 degrees out. We were alone on this rocky beach with the mountains coming right up from the lake. It was a magical moment and one I always look fondly on.


That's right, my own art moves me the most!


Day 18 - my wedding/future wedding/past wedding

R proposed to me on New Year's Eve 2007. I knew I would marry R but it was a total surprise! We were sitting next to the fire in our cozy apartment and I had to go let Alice outside. When I came in he pulled the ring out of the woodbox. So awesome!

We decided to get married in April 2007. We already had a trip planned to the Dominican Republic so we figured if we got married before it could become our honeymoon. We weren't planning a big wedding so it wasn't a problem having it so quickly.

So on April 14, 2007 we got married on a rocky ledge in a park right on the ocean in Marblehead, MA. It was chilly but we didn't have a drop of rain, which was amazing considering it rained for 2 weeks before and after the 14th and we didn't have an indoor contingency plan! We had only our immediate families with us at the park and afterwards we went back to our apartment for food and drinks. It was exactly what I wanted. I can't believe it's been over 3 years now. I love my husband.